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The second thing that concerned me was your very telling phrase, "It's like he's a new drug." As I was reading your letter, even before I got to that line, I was thinking, "He's replacing one addiction with another." It's common for recovering addicts to do exactly that. After all, what is addiction, really, but a reliance on something else to make you happy? Before, it was drugs for you. Now, it's Roger. You need to figure out how to be happy on your own before you jump into a serious relationship.

As for my advice about Roger, I think the idea of keeping it to friendship only is a very good one for both of you right now. It will allow you to find your footing on your own without simply transferring your addiction from one thing to another, and it will allow Roger time to see that you really have changed. The best case scenario for you would be that you gain the confidence and self-reliance to be a good and healthy partner for someone around the same time that Roger realizes he can trust you, and the two of you live happily ever after. The worst case scenario is that you end up with a good friend. Sounds like a win-win situation to me. So just relax. Stop trying to force something and just enjoy his friendship. After everything that's happened between the two of you, it sounds like you're pretty lucky to even have that.

By the way, congratulations on getting clean and kicking your drug habit. I wish you the best with that, and with Roger. Good luck. Until next time...Happy Dating!